But we will be back for the Tigers and back for Michigan and--might as well admit it--we will be back for the Lions come September, as red-faced as they make us, as pathetic as 0-16 is.
And maybe you ask why? Maybe you ask, as I get asked all the time, "Why do you stay there? Why don't you leave?"
Maybe because we like it here. Maybe because this is what we know: snow and concrete underfoot, hardhats, soul music, lakes, hockey sticks. Maybe because we don't see just the burned-out houses; we also see the Fox Theater, the Detroit Institute of Arts, the Whitney Restaurant, the riverfront that looks out to Canada. Maybe because we still have seniors who call the auto giant "Ford's", like a shop that was owned by a real human being. Maybe because some of us subscribe to Pastor Covington's words, "We are somebody because God loves us," no matter how cold the night or hard the mattress.
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime...
And to the rest of the world
God gave you the shoes to fit you
So put 'em on and wear them
Be yourself, man
Be proud of who you are
And even if it sounds corny
Don't ever let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful"
~Eminem, "Beautiful"
***
A few months ago, I watched Gran Torino, the Clint Eastwood film about a conservative (and bitter), old man who wasn't as racist as his facade suggested but was bold enough to lose his life to save his neighbors. The story was filmed in and perhaps epitomizes Detroit, Michigan, one of our nation's long enigmas.
A few weeks ago, I watched the 1999 film, For Love of the Game, which I hadn't seen since I watched it in the theater with my parents. The movie is based on the Michael Shaara novel about an aging star pitcher (for the Detroit Tigers in the movie) named Billy Chapel, who had never--until now--allowed the love of his life (Jane in the movie, Carol in the book) to be first priority. I remember being a bit turned off the first time I watched it, but I enjoyed it more this time, and the novel has now made its way into the pile of "books to read."
Then, a few days ago, I learned that TFA had a Detroit Corps between 2002 and 2004 that disbanded because--at least in part--corps member jobs were getting cut from the school system. Detroit is the only corps that has disbanded in TFA's nineteen-year history.

Today's plan of procrastinating lesson plans was a welcomed nap and some reading. I read a May 5 article called "Welcome to Crime City" in the Folio Weekly by Wes Denham, which explored Jax but from an angle that Detroit is quite familiar: crime and punishment. My recent choice of residence has familiarized myself with crime on a massive scale; indeed, my own older brother was robbed within months of moving here, and my students almost all have a close friend or relative who's in jail. I also know one of Detroit's other dilemmas, the effects of Globalization on the auto industry because I went to school in Anderson, Indiana, whose own city has been "dying" with similar symptoms if on an obviously smaller scale, although large enough to be the focus of more than one New York Times articles in the past few years.
After reading the Folio piece, I picked up January 12's edition of Sports Illustrated, which I had been hanging on to check out Mitch Albom's piece, And Yet..., which chronicles the ups and downs of the city that has become his. I am drawn to Albom--a sports journalist, playwright, and novelist--because of his competence in a variety of areas and for his rare introspectiveness in a world that so often produces rank-and-file, numb people who know a lot about one thing in order to earn a paycheck. Tuesdays with Morrie--even if explicitly sentimental--is, to this day, one of my favorite nonfiction books. Sure, he has that whole "reporting something that didn't happen" blotch on his record, but may we who are without sin cast the first stone.
Albom's article was particularly thought-provoking and compelling, making the case for hope and grace--through the lens of the city's sports teams--in a city that has become known for crime, economic failure, political corruption, and a failing school system. He poignantly tells of a time in 1990 when he got the star of each respective professional team--Barry Sanders (Lions), Joe Dumars (Pistons), Cecil Fielder (Tigers), and Steve Yzerman (Red Wings)--together for a humble but slightly awkward evening out. He claims that humility is one of the city's redeeming qualities; after all, he asks, could you imagine trying to convene Kobe Bryant, Manny Ramirez, and a couple others from Los Angeles out for an evening together?
My own experiences with Detroit are minimal but meaningful. I am, after all, a midwesterner who feels at least a bit of solidarity with such a blue collar place. Shortly after my freshmen year of college, I drove with a crew of friends and family to Windsor, Canada, just across the water from Detroit, and a traditional party place for 19-year olds. Our mission was sincerely more innocent; we were dropping off one of my sister's friends after both of their Culver graduations. Nevertheless, it was my first (and only, to date) experience "out of the country," even if it must come with the asterisk of being in Windsor. Since that first "drive-through," I've returned to Detroit twice for Tigers' games and twice to nearby (to the west) Ann Arbor (where my Culver roommate went to school) for Wolverine football and hockey games, respectively.
***
And so, you're saying, "Okay, Chris, I'm with you so far, but where does Eminem fit into all this?!! Sure, he's from Detroit, but--"
Patience, patience.
So I was wandering through a new Jacksonville Public Library--always a bad idea for me--when I saw it: The Way I Am, a red picture book-looking autobiography(ish) by Eminem (or Marshall Mathers III if you prefer real names). I couldn't resist; I checked it out and tore through it. Some books immortalize the author (F. Scott Fitzgerald comes to mind), but Eminem's book humanized him. He wrote about growing up in Detroit, he wrote about "making it in rap," he wrote about writing songs, dealing with the media, and he wrote about being a dad. It was fascinating, and he earned more respect from me than he previously had, even if I still distain his every-other-word usage of "f**k" and "f***ing." (It does seem to be his favorite adjective, and he also has an unusual obsession with the middle finger).

My own thoughts and experiences involving Eminem are a bit scattered, and, at times, dismissive. My recent fascination, though, isn't discriminatory: I am interested in what people believe and hope for and how that relates to how they live their life. As for Eminem, I have to respect the work it must take to get to the "top of the game," even if one's "game" is mainstream rap. His in-and-out nature of the spotlight also intrigues me. I saw 8 Mile and found it entertaining but less than profound, though the battle scenes admittedly gave me a rush of adrenaline.
I recall dating a girl I cared quite a bit for my senior year in high school, and being so disturbed that she liked Eminem, one who degrades women and even raps about raping them. Anyone who knows me would probably not be too surprised to learn that it became a bigger issue than it probably needed to--"making a mountain out of a mole hill" as my mom used to say--and a point of conflict we often returned to.
Ironically, at pretty much the same time, Eminem's "Lose Yourself" (quoted and linked above) was probably the biggest staple in my basketball team's locker room, and I remember being really drawn to it.
I also remember being intrigued by another white rapper, a "christian rapper" even, called KJ-52, who wrote a couple songs to/for Eminem. The second verse of "Dear Slim" goes like this:
Dear Slim I never wrote you or been calling
This is my 2nd letter cause see son I gots a real problem
It's that to you that I'm always catching these comparisons
And after shows I got these people coming up to me saying
You sound like Slim Shady son you sound like Eminem
And I be like now really man do I gots to go through this again
See I used to get mad and sick of people saying that
Till at this one show this one day I met this one cat
He told me how he used to listen to you but now listens to me
Had your LP but threw it out and bought my CD
I'm like "For real?" he's like "Yeah," said my music made a difference
It got him away from all your words and images
Gotta mention this now what about the effects you have on kids?
You ever stop to think about the millions you influence
Or is it just irrelevant is it a true life you telling it
Or just a way for some record companies selling it
The only thing we's got in common is our melanin
Or a lack of it but anyway now this is what I'm saying
Its for you that I'm on my knees now daily praying
Praying that God opens your eyes now to what I'm relaying
Now I'm praying that it's your heart that will soon be changing
Praying one day that you'll be calling upon his name and
But anyway I'm signing off now don't keep me waiting
This is KJ another cat just trying to make it
This is my 2nd letter cause see son I gots a real problem
It's that to you that I'm always catching these comparisons
And after shows I got these people coming up to me saying
You sound like Slim Shady son you sound like Eminem
And I be like now really man do I gots to go through this again
See I used to get mad and sick of people saying that
Till at this one show this one day I met this one cat
He told me how he used to listen to you but now listens to me
Had your LP but threw it out and bought my CD
I'm like "For real?" he's like "Yeah," said my music made a difference
It got him away from all your words and images
Gotta mention this now what about the effects you have on kids?
You ever stop to think about the millions you influence
Or is it just irrelevant is it a true life you telling it
Or just a way for some record companies selling it
The only thing we's got in common is our melanin
Or a lack of it but anyway now this is what I'm saying
Its for you that I'm on my knees now daily praying
Praying that God opens your eyes now to what I'm relaying
Now I'm praying that it's your heart that will soon be changing
Praying one day that you'll be calling upon his name and
But anyway I'm signing off now don't keep me waiting
This is KJ another cat just trying to make it
Now, KJ-52 is not the talent that Eminem is, but I remember admiring KJ's efforts, although I don't know if Eminem ever heard it or how he reacted. What KJ does get right that Eminem has gotten so consistently wrong is the importance of words, the affect that they have on people. Eminem addresses that in his book, and seems to be coming to grips with the reality--whether he likes it or not--that people pay attention to what he says, and that they take it seriously.
Eminem makes the case--and I do believe him, maybe out of hope--that he entered the game a bit naive. He didn't realize how much people would listen to him, how much his words would become headlines. For him, "f***ing" is just a generic adjective, and "fa**ot" just a noun. The reason I believe him is that in his story I see so many of my students: inner city kids, trying to be tough enough and avoid getting their asses kicked, and moving from school to school, hoping to get passed on to the next grade. Words and actions have little meaning; they are simply the expression of an impulse in that moment. Any reflection or analysis, of course, reveals all sorts of problems with that way of living, and I certainly hope Eminem has learned that, and for that reason and his fatherhood, he seems to have taken a little bit of a step back. He also believably claims that in many interviews he'll be on his best bevavior for an hour then blurt out one ridiculous thing and it would become the headline (rings true with the media I know).
Though the book could certainly be read and interpreted as an apologist's attempt at justifying poor choices--a PR strategy to repair what's been broken--I think there is much hope for redemption in the book. He wrote about the importance of his gig with Elton John to repair some of his image in regards to homosexuals. He wrote with affection about his great-aunt Edna and Uncle Charles, who, to some degree, seemed to be his saving graces. He wrote about the tragic suicides of two of his uncles. He also wrote a lot about being a father:
I want my girls to have a place where they belong and feel protected. That's why I say my biggest accomplishment is being a father and why I stepped back from the rap game for a minute. You can't just show up once in a while and call yourself Dad.
And:
I try to teach my girls to be responsible and accountable. Their world isn't just a free-for-all. They've got things they have to do around the house. When get they older, they'll have to get jobs and learn about what it means to earn. The safety net will of course be there--I'll always support them--but I want to support them going out and going things for themselves, too. Going for it. They're good kids, and I'm not saying that because they're mine. Kids will be kids, and, yea, mine misbehave and get punished once in a while. They keep me grounded. For real. And they make me laugh so hard.
Lastly, but not least--to bring this rambling post full circle--Eminem writes about Detroit, where he grew up and where he still calls home. He seems to love the place, and he is committed to it, which is honorable, in my opinion. It was his own story in his own home city that inaugurated his acting side-career, and--at least according to him--it was his insistence that the film be shot in Detroit ("It I can help in any way to create jobs there, I'm all for it."), and it was he who came up with the name for the film.
Eminem doesn't have to live in Detroit; God knows he could be in New York or Miami or Los Angeles or Atlanta or fill-in-the-blank with any other trendy city.
Indeed, Detroit is poor in jobs, education, safe neighborhoods, and revenue, but it is rich in history, culture, sports, and people. It is those assets and the unexplainable "something" about Detroit that make Mitch Albom and Eminem--vastly different people--call the same place home.
Because, at the end of the day, Detroit, like anywhere, is "home" to many people--is that not why any place is worth caring about, supporting, preserving, and improving?

3 comments:
Great post. I have been reading much about Detroit in the last few days. Have you ever noticed, though, that films which are placed in Detroit always paint that city as dark. For instance, other than "8 Mile", I know "Robocop" was filmed there, and Detroit was supposed to be a dystopia. (And that was in the future too!).
Too bad for Detroit. Factory towns have it tough.
Pretty good post Chris. I have a few things I want to comment on.
-Detroit is an interesting place. It poses many juxtapositions. I feel for Detroit. I spent 4 significant years of my life 45 minutes away. And I grew up in what many consider the Detroit-on-the-East [the East end of Lake Erie...Buffalo]. Rustbelt cities have been hit hard. It's hard to go from a point of pride [early 1900's] to a point of disappointment. I get that. Because of this I appreciate you writing a piece like this. It definitely hits home for me. So thanks for not hatin' on it.
-It's funny that you had [have? doesn't seem that way] such a problem with Eminem. Personally, I like him [this is shocking, I'm sure]. I understand when people are offended by what is said in such a public light [music is one of the most public places besides a tv screen, IMO]. But I have an honest question for you:
-You wrote about the importance of words and the affect they have on people. I remember when Columbine happened there was a lot of blame placed on Marilyn Manson. I never bought into that. Do you really think that lyrics can effect people, to the point of making someone take negative actions? Being a music lover myself, I always listen to lyrics and find some bands/songs that have literally changed my life, no joke. But when I hear someone like Eminem, I just laugh. I can't take what he says seriously, more in jest. Well, some things he raps about are serious matters, and some songs I actually really appreciate the lyrics to. Anyway, call me ignorant or naive, but I don't think anything he says poses a real threat. Maybe because of him kids think some words are more appropriate than others [example: f*ck as an acceptable adjective] but that's nothing that they won't hear at home. I just don't think that because of lyrics in an Eminem song kids will think it's ok to rape someone. Or shoot someone. Or do drugs. Just my opinion. So I guess after all that rambling, my question for you is, do you disagree [I think you do] and why? I'm not trying to fight, I'm trying to debate. I'm very interested in the other perspective, so I encourage you to share it. :)
Rachel, a few things in response to your questions. One, I actually thought I presented a pretty positive view of Eminem in the post? So when you said you were surprised that I have "such a problem" with him that kind of threw me off. Secondly, I'll stick to my claim that words matter. No, I don't blame Manson for Columbine, but I will say that while Eminem's lyrics don't influence you, he and other rappers DO influence my 5th grade students. Give you a very real example. When Chris Brown got arrested or accused or whatever of domestic violence, I heard a couple of my kids defending him, saying "she deserved it"/"she asked for it" kind of variety. These kids look up to someone like Eminem and do take what he says seriously. I think, Rachel, that you are even one who knows the importance of words. For example, when I say "I'm starving," it is you who says, "No you're not." You hate it because it's not true and there really are people who are starving. And so Eminem should not be "joking" about rape or calling people faggots, if not for the sake of others (I think he should consider that, too), but for HIS sake. I (and he) should be weary of what we say because of who we want to represent. Words, for better or worse, shape perceptions. I'll give you another good example here. I assume you know Blink 182's "Adam's Song? It's basically about suicide whether Blink wants to admit that or not. Check out the lyrics for yourself if you do not know them. Well, a blue chip basketball player at Columbine the year after the shootings committed suicide in his garage with that song on repeat. Google it if you want. Now, NO of course Blink 182 isn't to blame for the suicide. But their words do and did matter. And I wouldn't want someone committing suicide with my song playing on repeat. J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye has become known as the "assassin's handbook" because it influenced so many killers (I would argue that the killers weren't very good readers and didn't get the point of the book, obviously), but STILL, words matter. If you're still not convinced, Rachel, how about this. If words don't matter, then why was it such a big deal that your favorite, Mr. George W., screwed up his words so often? And what if he would have publically used words like "faggot"? How would that have gone over and how long would he have lasted?
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